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Somewhere over the rainbow…

I’ve been feeling so sad lately. So out of sorts. Feeling left behind. Forgotten. Feeling like sometimes I may have just been given more than I’m able to bear. Ever feel like that, too? I have much, much to be grateful for. And for those things, I am. But I am in a horrible funk that I can’t shake. I feel like I’ve been here for far too long. I feel like I’m 2 steps away from a complete and total nervous breakdown. Maybe I just need a really good cry. Don’t worry, I’m not going to have a total freak-out. I don’t need my neighbors to show up with muffins or anything. I’m just feeling very heavy and waiting, praying for things to change. Still. I’m hopeful they will. Someday.

I came across this song tonight. I’ve never heard this version before. Chris says he’s heard it once, on a fishing show. I really like it. I’m not taking any responsibility for the cheeseball graphics.

So until then, I sit, waiting for my troubles to melt like lemon drops, high above the chimney tops, that’s where you’ll find me…

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  1. French Knots Avatar
    French Knots

    I too feel weighed down sometimes, even knowing how much I have to be grateful for and enjoying my life. I hope you pass through it, does the end of summer make it worse?
    Uplifting song, thanks.

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  2. Mama Urchin Avatar
    Mama Urchin

    Aselin Debison does a good version of that song, I think. I hope you’re feeling better soon.

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  3. andie Avatar
    andie

    ((hug)) I’ve not forgotten you!

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  4. Meghan Avatar
    Meghan

    that is my favorite version! his name is Israel Kamakawiwo Ole. i grew up in hawaii, so that little video/song combo (cheese and all) makes me kinda homesick.
    here’s hopin’ you can de-funk-a-fy soon. sometimes i get stuck in a rut too and it feels like there is no end in sight. i;ll remember you in my prayers! 🙂

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  5. Jennifer Avatar
    Jennifer

    Everyone gets in funks like this. They are hard to deal with, and you have no idea what to do to pull yourself out of it. I know. I get like this myself.
    I know it sounds cliche, but it will pass. My suggestion is to take a walk with your son and your camera. Just take random shots of things you like. Walking always helps me clear my head and feel better.
    🙂 Jennifer

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  6. melanie Avatar
    melanie

    Morgs! I’m sorry you’re bummed, that’s no fun. I think you are amazing and I know you are doing a great job as a mom, wife, and crafty goddess. Hang in there! I love the song, too. So cheery. I actually used it as the music for a birthday slideshow I made for Gretta this year. Love it, love it, love it!

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  7. Pam Avatar
    Pam

    Aww. I know about those funks. Wishing you unfunkified days. xo

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  8. Amanda Avatar
    Amanda

    Cheer up! Miss you and LOVE to read your blog.

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  9. Amanda Avatar
    Amanda

    I also love this version, we use it in all of our charitable giving as a company. Check it out!
    http://www.culturalcare.com/aboutus/kidsfirst/default.aspx

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  10. liz elayne Avatar
    liz elayne

    i know that “feeling of forgotten.” it took a pretty major even earlier this year for me to identify that as a major feeling in my life.
    just wanted to say, “you are not alone.”
    i hope that you are able to take time just for yourself right now.
    many blessings to you…

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  11. ammie Avatar
    ammie

    This is my happy song!!!!!! When I die I want this song played at my funeral. I love, love, love this rendition. It always makes me feel a little happier after I hear it.
    Hang in there, girlie! Do something fabulous for yourself today.

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  12. Julie Avatar
    Julie

    I know exactly what you mean. It will pass, but until it does it sure is hard to deal with. Take care and hang in there — things always get better.

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  13. sarah Avatar
    sarah

    It’s so strange for me to read your lines. I’m like feeling the same things than you. I love the lyrics from this song, they are sweet but the tune is so sad…You’ll better listen to Doris Day “Keep smilin, keep laughin, keep happy”. It’s helping me today. I can get the tune in my head but I try…
    A good cry can help, really!
    You’re not alone,
    Sarah (from France!)

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  14. kim Avatar
    kim

    ((((BIG HUGS)))) THese are the days I really wish we lived closer, my sweet friend. We’d hit our favorite quilt store around 11…have soup and sandwiches (with Diet Coke, of course) at a fancy eatery…let our kiddos nap while we gossiped about nothing at all, as we’re making heavenly chocolate chippers for a gooey afternoon snack… sigh
    I know the blues will pass Miss Morgan. But until then, I’m thinking about ya, and hoping for a zillion happy and good things to come your way.

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  15. Avatar
    Anonymous

    that southern california rain sometimes freaks people out….actually though I completely know what you mean:)

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  16. Megs Avatar
    Megs

    I love you sweet sister. You have offered me so much support, wisdom and generosity thoughout my life, please allow me to do anything I can for you that will make your life easier. Know I am thinking about you and love you muchly. 🙂

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  17. jen Avatar
    jen

    im right there too. it was so comforting to read this post of yours. to know im not alone. ((HUGS))

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  18. stickchick Avatar
    stickchick

    Ohhhhh, I’m so sorry to see you are feeling so blue. HUUGE HUGS
    That was a beautiful video of rainbow shots (okay, a little corny… but in a good way).
    This was a rough weekend, so maybe it’s like the flu that’s going around- hits hard then goes away quick? Here’s to hoping! And another HUGE HUG in the meantime! 🙂

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  19. Shawn Avatar
    Shawn

    Delurking to say great song and sorry to hear your in a funk. I can definitely relate. Hope yours ends soon. Your blog is one of my absolute favorites and I think this may be the first time I’ve commented. I’ve really gotta work on that. 🙂 Hope the sunny days are ahead for you.

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  20. Diane Avatar
    Diane

    I think having those days is part of life, unfortunately. I usually feel better when I excercise and craft! Do something nice for yourself and it will pass soon.

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  21. Jessie Avatar
    Jessie

    They use that song on a commercial – I’m not sure which one it is – but I love it! I hope, as Amanda said, you feel unfunkified soon. If not, maybe consider an antidepressant or “talking” to someone. It works for me!

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  22. Jessica K. Avatar
    Jessica K.

    Oh, I’m right there with you. I gave my craftroom and house a good “spring” cleaning this weekend and it helped lift the heavy fog I’d been buried under a little. Glad to know I’m not the only one that feels that way sometimes and that I am not completely loosing it. I think we put too much pressure on ourselves to be more like our blog-selves and it’s hard to keep up the pretenses.

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  23. Jana Kigin Avatar
    Jana Kigin

    A healthy dose of Dancing With the Stars usually works wonders…
    I have been in a funk lately, too. Weather, being fat, not being crafty enough, blah blah blah.
    What would Ina do when she’s sad? Make Outrageous Brownies, of course!

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  24. Stacie Smith Avatar
    Stacie Smith

    Not sure if this was already said, but this is a classic song for father-daughter dance at weddings. I’ve heard it a million times, but have never really thought of it as being related to Wizard of Oz.
    I hope you reach the surface soon. It’s tough being in the same place for long, also tough being in a new place. So many memories and places I wish I were besides here.

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  25. kristy Avatar
    kristy

    i’m sorry your feeling blue morgan… i’ve so been there before. it feels like a weight is lifted when you finally come out of it. i think it’s part of the cycle of life, ya know?
    i hope you find your way out of it soon girl 🙂
    ps- have always LOVED that version… it’s on some movie, but can’t for the life of me think of which one…

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  26. Heather Roms Avatar
    Heather Roms

    Wow, this could be a long comment because I HAVE SO BEEN THERE! I wish I was your next door neighbor, I’d be over faster than you can even imagine. I’ve been in those moments where my brain completely knows that everything is fine, but my heart won’t believe it. And it actually feels like a physical burden. And you can’t even pray. And things that used to bring you joy can be the source of everything overwhelming (even your kids who are your very heartbeats.) And you feel like what you want is a righteous desire, so not having it seems unfair. So I can offer this, keep your chin up. Sometimes you just need to fake it ’til it’s real. What you pay attention to will grow. And know that you are most definitely not forgotten. And that it is all OK in the end, and if it’s not the end yet. And if you can pray, pray for faith and endurance. I know you (and love you) through the blog world, just like so many others. And through that knowing, I have absolute faith that you will get through it, and be better for it! I’m totally, positively, completely there for you.

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  27. Heather Roms Avatar
    Heather Roms

    So sorry, I meant to write, it is all OK in the end, and if it’s not OK, it’s not the end yet.

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  28. Heather Roms Avatar
    Heather Roms

    OK, comment number 3! But I just have to say that this song is so special to me and I can’t listen to it without tears. And my friends made a DVD for me with this song, showing all the pictures of my first daughter’s delivery day. The daughter that I had waited 5 years, through every medical intervention there is, to carry 40 weeks and then hold in my aching arms. Faith can turn into hope, and hope then into joy. It’s just around the corner for you, I can feel it.

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  29. em Avatar
    em

    oh my love! if only i were just 2 flights of stairs away…sob
    call me and let aunty em take all your troubles away…or at least cheer you up with my charming accent.
    miss you xxx

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  30. Mom Avatar
    Mom

    My precious daughter … I love you and I am praying for you. You are not forgotten; Heavenly Father knows exactly where you are and what you need. There is always an answer; we just don’t know what it is yet … but it will come, I promise … XXOO

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    Anonymous

    Take one day at a time… thats how I do it.
    I sooo know how you feel. Some days are worse than others and some days I wonder what all the fuss is about. On bad days I sit under the shower and cry and let it all out. It’s soothing. The only place I can be on my own and let my guard down and don’t have to be a tower of strength for everyone.
    Love the song too. Was in the movie 50 First Dates (but not on the Soundtrack) and in Finding Forrester(where I first heard it) and Joe Black movies.
    Hugs to you.
    A.

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  32. Jacy Avatar
    Jacy

    I love that song, too. I first heard it on Finding Forrester and loved it so much I put it on my wedding video.
    I’m sorry you’re feeling down. I’ve been there… just wondering when or even if everything (or anything) was ever going to work out. It usually does, but that doesn’t make the meantime any easier. Hang in there. I will be thinking of you.

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  33. Kim Avatar
    Kim

    Hey there Morgan!
    So sorry to hear you are feeling this way! I was in a funk that I just couldn’t shake all last year, and so I know how hard it is! Take some time out for yourself, do something you enjoy, and hopefully things will look up soon! In the meantime, shoot me an email if you ever just need to talk!
    P.S. I love that version of “Over the Rainbow” also! The artist, in case you were trying to track him down, is Israel Kamakawiwo Ole.

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  34. matt Avatar
    matt

    wasn’t this version played during the end credits of ‘you’ve got mail?’ i could’ve sworn….
    love you, sis. you’re the best oldest sister i have! 🙂

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  35. Felicia Avatar
    Felicia

    Hope you feel better soon

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  36. Carol Avatar
    Carol

    “All these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good.” D&C 122:7
    I see you doing so many good things! You are such a great example to me in so many ways.
    In life each of us must get to the “bottom of the barrell” so to speak so that we will turn our heart more than ever to the Lord. Often we don’t know what great strengths and abilities we have until we are tried and tested to our limit. It is surprising but we find this great inner strength that not only gets us through funky days, but strengthens others.
    You have earned the right to be in a funk, but when you feel a better serve others and you will be surprised how great it makes you feel.
    xoxoxo

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  37. Amanda Avatar
    Amanda

    Morgan, I’ve been lurking on your site for awhile now, and I really love everything you put your hand to. I don’t know how open you are to God. You mentioned prayer in your post. My encouragement for you is to “cast all your care on Him for He cares for you.” Just release whatever is in your heart to Jesus. His back is much bigger and stronger than ours. He can carry your burdens and bring you peace and comfort. I will pray for you today. You are a very inspiring woman. Take rest in the Lord.

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  38. Tawni Avatar
    Tawni

    I think you need to go to Hawaii on vacation. I went there years ago and heard this song, bought the CD, and layed on the beach for days and days and didnt move…ahhh…so I think that is what you need. I found a package today for 4 nights with air for 399!!!! Im going, are you? We love you. Hang in there.

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  39. Deb Avatar
    Deb

    It’s at the end of the movie 50 First Dates too.
    Reading about Paul lately and he said something I’ve always known but tend to forget from time to time…”Blessed be God… the God of all comfort; who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.” Translation (for me, at least): When drowning in your own sorrows… go do something for someone and you’ll forget about your troubles. Service… like I don’t do enough for everybody. I’m sure you feel the same way. I guess sometimes there’s not enough appreciation and gratitude in the world. So, what I have to say to you is…. thank you for bringing a few moments of joy into my life each week(via your website). I love everything you do. Keep up the great work! But, also do like Matt said – Take some time out for yourself. Do something you enjoy. And now I’ll end with that ever popular, sometimes quoted too much, phrase: He never said it would be easy, only that it would be worth it.

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  40. RaNae Avatar
    RaNae

    I’m so sorry you are going through a tough time. I love that song. Music can help you get through sadness. Be gentle with yourself, go ahead and grieve whatever it is you need to grieve. There is a song I’ve been listening to,(Barbra Striesand)it’s from a mom to her child and says “I know that I can never cry your tears, but I would, if I could! I think of this every time one of my dear family is having pain
    The best advice I ever got during these times was to find something to laugh at. Laughter is healing.
    After all that, then know ‘that this too shall pass’.

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  41. michal Avatar
    michal

    morgan,
    i am so sorry that you are feeling blue and am guessing that there is something rotten going on that you are wrestling with. please know how much i love and admire you. and more importantly, remember how much heavenly father knows you and desires to bless you.
    the words to one of my (many) favorite hymns come to mind:
    dearest children, god is near you watching o’er you day and night. and delights to own and bless you if you strive to do what’s right. he will bless you, he will bless you if you put your trust in him.
    i know you know all this as well, but sometimes it helps to hear it again.
    you’re in my prayers.

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  42. LaTeaDah Avatar
    LaTeaDah

    I’m so sorry you are feeling blue and weighted down. I hope you’re better now and continue in an upward spiral!
    Hugs!
    LaTeaDah

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  43. qagirl614 Avatar
    qagirl614

    Hi Morgan, I recently found your blog and wanted to tell you how much I enjoy reading it. The soul strengthening (at least that is how I reason it when I fall into this funk myself) has a purpose. Although sometimes these “growing pains” are really a pain. The older I get the more they seem to sneak up on me as well. Hearing you speak of your feelings has given me comfort that I too am not alone when I go through my patches of sadness. You are not alone. Know that Heavenly Father is ever so close to us and surrounds us with mortal angels that lift us up. You are in my thoughts. -Veronica

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  44. kelli Avatar
    kelli

    Morgan, my computer has been down and after balancing the ole checkbook and trying to feel safe in my new home after coming home to find the door open Sat night, I logged on to your blog to connect in my own way to another mom.
    Your world is so different from mine but I do so enjoy reading. My daughter will turn 4 this month. We live in Kansas (I feel over the rainbow). We spent a year in Kentucky and I stayed at home. It was so hard for me since I worked full time for 13 years prior. We were living on a third of the cash we usually had. I enjoyed the time with my daughter, but I missed working. I am a dental hygienist and I love what I do. I have trouble balancing it all. I try to pass on to my daughter a lot about what I learned that year. You set an example each day for your child. A simple smile and moment you share is more than all the over the rainbow moments. I had trouble getting out of bed and starting my day. My daughter was always ready and waiting for me. You are a super mom and do amazing things for your fam. Thank you for sharing your life with others. You deserve to give yourself a break.

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  45. Kelli Avatar
    Kelli

    Sorry, another thoughtful comment. My daughter recently seen her first rainbow. Half was missing and she said it was scared and hiding. On another day, we were in the car driving and it was overcast and looking like rain, she asked me when the rainbow wasn’t going to be scared. “It’s ok rainbow, you can come out”, she said. I replied that the clouds would have to move. She said, “the clouds are going to be angry so the rainbow will have to be big and not be scared”. Don’t be afraid to let your rainbow show. Even if part of it is scared.

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  46. 'than Avatar
    ‘than

    Love that song. “Brudda IZ” Israel Kamakawiwo’ole recorded that a few years back – Sort of mixed emotions on that song eh? Sad and beautiful at the same time.

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