GratitudeYou guys. I mean seriously, you guys!  From the bottom of my heart, thank you, thank you, thank you. Thanks for de-lurking, a lot of you for the very first time. I know it’s strange to comment on a blog for someone that you don’t know. I sometimes feel strange, too. But thank you for doing it. I always try to respond to every comment on my blog because I think if this was ‘real life’ and we passed each other on the street and you said the same kind words to me, I wouldn’t just keep on walking. I would stop and throw my arms around you and give you a big smooch and many, many thanks. I want you to feel welcome here and not like a stranger. So I hope you do. It was great learning more about all of you. You guys really are a fascinating bunch!

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Onto "Sir Heinrich Von Cutemeister." So excited to choose one very lucky
winner! Actually he couldn’t stop grabbing names out of the bowl. So we have more than one winner.

The Grand Prize goes to:

Libby from Central Washington State!

And since he pulled an additional 2 names out, these two gals will get a little cupcake gift set, complete with liners & sprinkles. And they are:

Julieta from So. Cal

Ellie from Lexington, VA

Gals, I’ll get in touch with you so I can mail of your gifts this week.

On a side-note, Chris called Henry "Heinrich" once at his Dr’s
apt and she turned and said, "Oh! I’m sorry, I didn’t realize his name
was Heinrich!" Well,
um…that’s because his name isn’t technically Heinrich. We’ve just
been calling him  ‘Heinrich Von Cutemeister’ since he was born.

I’m going to share something that I normally would never choose to
share on my blog. It’s quite personal, but here goes. Right after I
posted my 100th post on Wednesday, I started to miscarry. This was my
second miscarriage in a row. I was pregnant in the Fall, and due on
June 17th, 2007 but I miscarried around 12 weeks.  But the first time
was a fluke, right? I mean, 1 in 4 women miscarry, so it shouldn’t have
been a total surprise. And it wasn’t. I knew there was a small chance.
I was just hoping that it wouldn’t be us. And well, it was. And it was
tough, but it was okay. I did have Heinrich after all to put a big
smile on my face. We got pregnant relatively soon after and well, it was kind of hard to get too excited. And now you know the rest. It was a really bummer of a day. And if you are family you are probably hearing about this for the first time. I’m sorry.
You didn’t even know we were pregnant. No one did.  After the first
miscarriage, we realized it wasn’t a good idea to let any potential
baby news out of the bag so early. So we didn’t. And this is why. So
the point is, during the royal bummer of a day, and the royal bummer of
days that followed, I felt so blessed to get sweet and kind words from
all of you. And you didn’t even know. You didn’t even know how much
deeper and meaningful it all was. How lucky for me to decide to post on
a random Wednesday, and how lucky for me that so many of you came out
of the woodwork to show support in ways that you had no way of knowing.
So thank you, thank you. It all means so much.

Phew- so that’s
over. I think someone needs to make some brownie cupcakes in her new
cupcake liners. Brownies. They always have a way of making a gal feel better
about things (as did that giant spoon of chocolate frosting eaten straight
out of the jar while standing in front of the refrigerator tends to
do).

xoxo
Happy Monday!

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51 responses to “And the winner is….”

  1. Toni Avatar

    Oh Morgan! I’m so sorry to hear about your sad news. I’m sending a hug of course, and hoping with you that it won’t happen again. Thank you for sharing, I know there will be many that want to send a hug too. xoxo.

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  2. Judy in Carefree Avatar
    Judy in Carefree

    Oh, Morgan, I’m so sorry! My daughter miscarried her first, but waited about six months and now I have a 4 year old granddaughter and an almost 3 year old grandson. Get yourself back in tune and it will work out. A big HUG in the meantime!

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  3. Heather Avatar
    Heather

    I am so, so sorry about your loss. 😦 Sending lots of hugs your way.

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  4. kim (OliveJuice) Avatar

    (((BIG HEARTFELT HUGS))) to you, my sweet friend. I’m so happy that the loads of comments could be of some solace…but am still sad for your unfortunate loss.
    Yes, make some brownies, and savor LOTS of them…and then when you feel a bit better, please send me your mailing address. I need to send you a little something. 🙂

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  5. islandjen Avatar

    i’m so glad you were able to receive so much support when you least thought you would need it. i’m sending some cyber hugs your way.
    i totally understand where you’re coming from. hubby and i had the same situation on our first go around trying to get pregnant. and going against what we always said, we jumped the gun and told everyone too. lesson learned. and like i tell most of my friends who are trying to get pregnant, makin’ the baby is half the fun!! 😉 hugs sweetie!

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  6. Norma Avatar

    Congratulations ladies!!! You lucky girls you!!!
    Morgan,
    So sorry to hear about your loss. I am glad you were able to find some comfort during this hard time. Take care. n.

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  7. kirsten Avatar

    hugs to you, morgan!
    (and my littlest had that robot sweater henry is wearing when he was newborn. oh, how i loved it!)

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  8. sarah Avatar

    I can’t help but tearing up a bit at the news of your loss. I wish I could do something… I hope my long distance hug is enough.
    On a lighter note, I love the nickname you have given to your son. Sounds a bit like something my husband would come up with! (He calls our cat Cleo P. Waddlesworth. :D)

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  9. Julie Avatar

    Morgan, so sorry to hear your heartbreaking news – our hearts go out to you and Chris. Wish I could do it in person, but know that I’m sending you two all the love that can be sent over a blog.
    Please know that I too am headed over to the fridge right now to get that spoonful of frosting you mentioned . . . Hang in there doll and know that our thoughts and prayers . . . and frosting spoons are with you guys. J&J

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  10. Libby Avatar
    Libby

    Morgan-
    I wish there was something that I could say to soothe the hurt…I know there is not. Even in the earliest stages of pregnancy so much of yourself (hopes, wonders, thoughts) are poured into that little baby- I cannot imagine how devestating it would be lose it- no matter how small. Thinking of you…
    ps: I WON!!??!! How exciting! That was my 1st time posting a comment on a blog ever!!

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  11. LeeAnn Avatar

    I am sorry to hear such sad news. I hope you get the tremendous support you need from people who know and love you.
    Brownie cupcakes sounds amazing and so does the spoonful of icing. Mmmm.

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  12. PresentPast Collection Avatar

    Your Cutemeister is adorable! I will pray that someday he will have another Meister to join him in sharing the throne! My heart goes out to you and your family. And I’m sure that the best is yet to be!

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  13. Jaime Thomas Avatar

    Morgan, I am so so sorry about your sad news. That must have been so difficult. I will never forget the kindness that you showed me when I told you about our pregnancy struggles and I will continually pray for the best for you!

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  14. erin Avatar

    big hugs and lots of sweet thoughts headed your way!

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  15. Rebecca Avatar

    Oh Morgan, I’m so bummed for you too. Hang in there and big big BIG hugs to you.

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  16. Julieta Avatar

    I’m so sorry! It’s always difficult to understand why bad stuff happens to good people. If you figure out why before me, let me know. I’ll do the same, I promise! Oh, and don’t lose faith that good things happen. Case in point: I step out of lurking and I WIN A PRIZE?! Undeserved sweetness, that’s what that is!
    Kahlil Gibran:
    … joy and sorrow are inseparable. . . together they come and when one sits alone with you . . . remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

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  17. Deanna (domestic chicky) Avatar

    So sorry to hear about your loss Morgan…I love that so many people came out to congratulate you on your 100th post, and will take a moment to post an intro this week…you have become one of my favorite reads!!

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  18. Rylinn Avatar

    Morgs — I’m so sorry to hear about your loss – I really hope you’re feeling better physically – I know the emotional loss will take more time. It’s such a hard thing to understand why the Lord giveth and taketh away these wonderful blessings in our lives. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Chris and Henri.
    I’m glad you’ve found solace in this creative engine like you have and BAKE AWAY !!!!!!!
    Love you so much — Rylinn XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

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  19. joyce Avatar

    Your blog is lovely, and I don’t know how I’ve missed it before. Found you through “tie one on”
    I’m so sorry about your loss…I’ve been there too and I’ll be thinking of you.

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  20. Mama Urchin Avatar

    I’m so sorry Morgan. I’m glad our presence helped you through even though we didn’t know. I hope now that we do know you’ll feel the hugs even more.

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  21. Jeanelle Avatar
    Jeanelle

    I am so sorry for your sad news. You are in my thoughts.

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  22. N. Avatar

    I’m so sorry. I lost a baby too and I know the heartache. 😦

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  23. leslie Avatar

    Morgan, I am so sorry to hear your news……..i will keep you in my thoughts……

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  24. Lindsay Avatar
    Lindsay

    Morgan, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers with be with you and your family.

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  25. pam Avatar

    Hugs to you.

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  26. Janay Avatar
    Janay

    Morgan. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. When we found out we were unable to have children it was devastating, but I always told my husband that I would rather not ever be able to have biological children then experience carrying one and loosing it. My heart reaches out to you. You are in my prayers. Good luck and don’t give up hope!

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  27. Carol Avatar
    Carol

    Dearest Morgan! my heart goes out to you and Chris because I know how much you want other children. You are a WONDERFUL mother, wife and daughter of God. I know you will have the righteous desires of your heart. The world needs good mothers, people who love and care about people are make a conscious effort to make the world a better place. . . and in those areas you are the best! Allow your body to heal, and while that happens take comfort in knowing that you are loved and thought about by many family and friends.
    Carol

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  28. jeny Avatar

    A big hug to you and a prayer for your cute family.

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  29. Angie Avatar
    Angie

    Morgan, I too was so sorry to hear about your news. I can’t tell you how touched I was to receive a personal email from you after I posted in response to your 100th–you are a really truly special and wonderfully kind person. My husband and I are having trouble getting pregnant so your posting today brought tears to my eyes. Take care, and enjoy and cherish the adorable Heinrich!

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  30. lera Avatar

    I am so terribly sorry about your miscarriage(s). I know how painful (emotionally and physically) they are. I was “1 in 4,” as were 3 of my 4 sisters.
    I hope things start looking up for you and your family.

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  31. islandginny Avatar
    islandginny

    Hugs to you. Sorry to hear about the sad news. I hope all these words of encouragement from everyone will help to comfort you in some way.
    Thanks for responding to my de-lurking post. It was a pleasant surprise.

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  32. Megs Avatar

    Morgan, I love you dearly and I’m thinking about you. Heinrich has a little bit more time to be the only King in the palace. I know his siblings are waiting to join your family, it just all in God’s hands. You are a remarkable woman and inspiration. Much love and hugs to you.

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  33. meg Avatar

    Oh Morgan – I’m so sorry! That is indeed a royal bummer, and I’m just glad that you’re able to take some comfort in the everyday stuff. I know we’re practically strangers, but I’m sending you a big cyber-hug. Can you feel it? 🙂 Take care….

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  34. Diane Avatar
    Diane

    A big virtual hug to you.

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  35. Kim Avatar

    I’m so sorry to hear about your miscarriage! I have several friends who have recently gone through the same thing, and I can’t say I know what you’re going through, but I do know that it’s very, very tough. Keep your chin up, and know that there are lots of us out in the world sending good thoughts your way.

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  36. Jo Avatar

    Please take some comfort, if you can, from a stranger far away thinking of you both.

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  37. Jennifer Avatar

    Like everyone else, I am so sorry to hear your news. A lot of my friends have been in the same situation as you, so while I don’t know first hand what it is like, I’ve seen them go through it and I know how hard it is.
    Make your brownies and enjoy them. You deserve it. 🙂

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  38. Mary Beth Avatar

    I didn’t de-lurk before, but I did now. I know how emotioanally painful miscarriages can be. I had several in a row–it was a very difficult time for me, but now I have two sweet little boys–2 years and 4 months. I’m just telling you this because at the time I really loved hearing positive stories of other people who went through the same thing then ended up with healthy babies. So hang in there and take care.

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  39. Jennifer Avatar

    I’ll join the others in sending just all my very best thoughts and wishes and hopes to you, my good intentions of care, my desire to make a big batch of soup to deliver to your house for you (along with a side of brownies). I’ll also say how touched I was to receive a response from you, especially given how very many people you had to respond to. Please do not feel you need to do anything other than know how very much you are cared for….

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  40. Sarah Avatar
    Sarah

    Didn’t delurk before but I have left a comment before. I had to delurk now. My thoughts go out to you and your family. When we had Gwen (now three) she wasn’t suppossed to be according to the doctors and we made it to term. The next two were miscarriages and then we kept Wyatt and made it past term.
    It was so so hard to go on after both miscarriages and kindness from others who didn’t even know helped sooooo much (after I stopped crying).
    {hugs} to you and best wishes.

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  41. shelley Avatar

    i can’t possibly tell you how very sorry i am or even fathom what you are going through. but a big warm and caring hug comes to you all the way from upstate chilly ny…

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  42. Jamie Avatar

    Hey Morgan!
    I’m so sorry about your miscarriage(s), what a hard thing to go through. I didn’t “come out of the woodwork” on your last blog, because I figured you probably knew I was already a faithful reader. But just wanted you to know that my heart goes out to you! I’m so glad I had the opportunity to meet you at Disneyland with Tara.

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  43. andie Avatar

    ((hugs)) I’ve had 4, i know its hard…give Heinrich Von Cutemeister (way cute name!!) an extra hug and kiss tonight

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  44. Megan Avatar
    Megan

    Morgan, I know I’m late, but I just found you. I love your blog, it’s so beautiful.
    I wanted to comment, because I started my blog 2 days before I found out I was pregnant, so I thought wow, a wonderful place to talk about my pregnancy. We’ve been trying for 2 years and had a miscarriage the first month we tried. Well, what started out as a blog of pregnancy and craftiness, turned into a blog of pain from miscarriage. No matter what, it is a hurt like no other. I chose to talk about it there than burden people in my life. It helped.
    Sorry for the ramble. As you can see from your readers, you are loved and needed. I just wanted you to know that you are also understood…

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  45. alison Avatar

    morgan,
    okay so i am a lurker and i really truly meant to de-lurk when you sent out that post, but it simply slipped my mind. it is probably because i also recently miscarried. when i saw your post, i just had to leave you a comment to let you know how sorry i am for your loss. i feel the same way you do, you know it is common, but you never think it will happen to you. i have two little girls and just seeing them helps, but it just puts you in a big funk. i hope you are okay. i love reading you blog. and i especially love your recipes (i made the monte cristo sandwiches on oscar night with my friends). take care and i am sending the best possible energy your way.
    alison

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  46. LaTeaDah Avatar

    The crown and your son are adorable! I’m so glad I’ve found your blog!
    A trip to Target is now planned. . .
    🙂
    LaTeaDah

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    Anonymous

    So sorry to read about your recent loss. I hope your next pregancy is happy and healthy and I’m glad Sir Heinrich Von Cutemeister is ready with extra hugs. 🙂

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  48. Heather Avatar
    Heather

    Morgs,
    Just read your blog this week-I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. We love you guys! So sorry I did not respond sooner. You brigthen up so many people’s lives. Thanks for all you do.

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  49. Jann Avatar

    This is sad news. I am new to your site , but saw your post. Hope things are going well……………you take care……life is good! Things happen for a reason…………

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  50. Monica Avatar

    I’m really sorry too. I can’t begin to imagine how you feel right now, but you sound like a strong person and well… you have the good thoughts and prayers and best wishes for the future from all of us in ‘blogland’. take care.

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